dawn chorus - a poem


When you have survived
Living inside a climate catastrophe

And known the catastrophising over every day.

Of every tiny thing seeming enormous

Which bin is the right one for this thing

Individual electrical usage

That takeaway coffee cup

Locked doors and whether that fence is on the right side of a made up boundary.

Pointing fingers and financial security

Whether the neighbours are watering on the correct days.

Finding holes in people’s opinions like disdainfully searching a knitted jumper

Without seeing its stories

Or hearing about who knitted it

Or falling in love with the way the wool, grown out on pasture in sunlight

On the back of an animal, birthing and breathing and feeding

Was woven into a story

To keep someone warm.

And every huge thing seeming petty or self-indulgent

Raising children and stay home parenting

Falling in love

Dreaming of the future

Your mental health

How your body feels

Cortisol pulsing through your body always

Rushing to find solutions 

With no time to feel them out

Or hear from the people who are the most silent

Or consider why they are silent in the first place.

Living everyday as if it’s an argument

And pumping all of that into our blood,

Into our genes

Into our babies.


And the most enormous of things are barely noticed

Like the influence of history

The way colonial genoicide lives on

In our every day lives.

Unfurling in the myth of generational wealth

The lie that privilege holds no sway on the effect of hard work

Or even what hard work is

Or that it is to be glorified

That the earth can be owned

That it can belong to anything as impermanent as a human being

That we can take and take without giving back

From this world, so alive with gifts

Or even, 

Giving back only our waste, only our poisons

Without ever asking for consent

In the taking or the giving
Over and over

Into landscapes that are people’s family

Into places made out of ancestors

Calling colonisation progress

Forgetting that trees are also our kin

That they hold the stories of

A time when human people and plant people

Walked hand in hand

Marvelling at each other’s gifts and sharing this world

That the world is billions of stories in motion

And the land, the water, the cells of all living things

Hold all the stories

Of what has come before

Shaping what the future can be.

Akasha.

Alive, books reading themselves

And writing themselves at the same time.


And no-one ever seems to notice that the quote

Great Minds Discuss Ideas. Average Minds Discuss Events. Small Minds Discuss People.

Is about people.

And maybe everything is just people - plant people, animal people, mountain people, ocean people maybe this whole planet, solar system, galaxy is just one person, living out their days.


And maybe it’s all just events or all just ideas. Or everything, all at once, stretched out by the person, event and idea that is time. 


And here we are in time's great woven web. 

And the body of the earth has been asked to give and give in the name of ownership

So many millions of litres of blood soaking into the soil

All of it made out of ancestors,

Human and not human ancestors


When you have lived as if the world is ending,

When all your days are filled with fear for your children

When you’ve already imagined the worst case scenarios over and over

Trying to take up less and less space

Diminishing into nothing

Telling stories of the apocalypse

Forgetting that for some

The apocalypse already came

That existential dread followed colonisation

Like a magic trick of a magnet pulling something across a table,

Hand hidden underneath.

And your chest holds the enormity of all of it.

Talking about the future as a doomsday.


One day you might rise

And realise you are still alive.

Still breathing

And the world is still giving.

The gifts are still here.

The world is still alive.

And you are still invited

To be part of that aliveness.

And expand, into the world that you belong to

Become part of this great game of reciprocity


What if our days started with glorious songs of our aliveness

Like birds at dawn

A great dawn chorus 

Where all voices,

Even the silent ones

Were joining in

Songs of nematodes

And dandelions

And great white sharks

Of mountain streams

And muddy puddles

Of great rolling waves

And baby robins

Cane toads and bakery yeasts 

Gut flora and the pull of gravity

All chorusing in one great shout of what it is to be alive

One great moving, cycle of song

Where all stories curl outward and inward

A living world

Expanding in its aliveness.

Celebrating its survival

Knowing its own fragility 


When you have survived feeling like the world is going to end

Every morning is a dance.

Death has not claimed me now.

And it cannot claim me

Because I am water

I am the sea

And the mountain

And your smile as I turn to face you

The life cycle of a nematode 

And the beauty of a dewdrop

On a quiet morning

Poised to fall

From the tip of a fern frond.





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